Route to Happiness

"Happiness is an occasional episode in a life full of pains."

Shakespeare has been so true with this. It's no doubt a rare phenomena. Its just that our entire life we keep looking for it but don't get it. Actually we dont even look for it. We just sit back and expect it to come to us , not understanding the precariousness it comes with.
The one and the only way to get it is to find it. And if u can't then invent it. Dig it. Explore it. Let it debouch from the depths of your being. Give it a shot ! and u will find it somwhere very close to yourself. Somewhere at a place where u had never expected it. Concealed somewhere very close to you.
Once you find it. keep it. Do not let it estrange your mind and heart. Allow it to permeate within yourself. Feel it penetrating within. Strongly hold this winsome spectacle and let it douche out all worries , troubles and pathos. Give it sometime. allow it to spring clean ur mind and soul and turn them impeccable.
Then see ur world changing. From sordid to splendid. From terrible to terrific....and enjoy the transformation ...relish the magnificance from the vantage you love.

Strange feeling!

Well the last month's blog entry forced my friends to comment that it was far less interesting than the entries i wrote to express my feelings!!...but to tell u the truth all feelings cannot b expressed..atleast not like this!! and neither is it an easy job...feel.. it takes a lot of guts.To some your feelings may even sound a bit pseudo social...Whatever may b said about it..it makes not much of a diffence atleast to me..As i feel that human emotins and feelings are never static. They keep changing according to time and situation..and in most cases we seem to have absolutely no control over them. and to assume that our feelings for others do not change or are not supposed to change is like putting ones self on the conveyor belt and not expecting any sensations!What is then imperative here is to have some knowledge of human psychology and try to understand the strange feelings that other people undergo....and in certain other cases not to b over assuming .
Its very true that expressing ones feelings, desires and emotions can b very scathing at times..but lets not try to find or see a treeline everywhere and in every situation and become to conclusive about things said or done to us..I guess our life in itself is a learning experience and there is so much that we learn and discover about ourselves each day...and..if that happens with us..lets not forget it happens with others too..So lets stop asking the why and how of every darned thing , comment or remark considering it as a sharpnel on ourselves .
Lets try to be at peace with ourselves and let the others be what they are...and if they cant let you be what u are then chuck them!!

Time Machine

Very often the idea of time traveling invades my mind and thoughts. At one point of time it became such untenable obsession that even my catnaps were replete with waggish dreams of my space excursion. After reading this book, whose author has long abandoned my memory,’ The time travelers wife’, I was all the more inspired! So to dabble my knowledge over the description of Einstein's paradox I would like to share something with the ones interested.
Before i tell you about it one must know that traveling in a space ship, apart from the adventure quotient, also provides its users with an additional benefit. Well so to say, entering into the scuttle assures that anyone shuttling through space is definitely going to age at a retarded pace in comparison to his earthly sibling!( That’s why time travel) Now before my information and understanding escapes through the smokestack let me type it down.
Einstein’s paradox-
Well Einstein used 2 clocks for his experiment. One got the esteemed opportunity to time travel at about 3*100000000 m/sec i.e. the lightening speed. (Oh! I am so jealous, I can only sit back and dream while the clock even does it!). After many years when the spaceship landed in the earths sacred premises it was discovered that the clock on it had traveled slowly in comparison to its not -so –fortunate counterpart.

Conclusion- Time moves slowly when objects are in motion.

The same was repeated on earthly twins. (Wish I had a twin sister! That would accelerate my chances of being a part of the experiment…boohoo!) At the end of the travel, the interstellar sibling was younger adding to the envy and anxiety of his relative on earth.
The paradox exists because according to the laws of physics the one on earth should have been making the other go green with envy because the earth is also in motion, but as a matter of fact it happened the other way round!!!

Conclusion- I still haven’t traveled through time! I hate Einstein!

Dare to dream??

Well last night i had a strange dream..and i found myself transported to completely different place..the place i had literally never dreamt of in my wildest of dreams!..Gosh as ever i am trying to confuse you..but lemme tell u the truth..this was darned exciting..i found myself at a birthday bash.whose?? i have no idea! where?? i dunno!..and u dare not ask me how! i already told you that!..i closed my eyes and scuttled my way thorough the night to reach the unknown place...Nevertheless the dream sounded wasteful..but it did coax my imagination to a point.What the hell inspired such a dream..Afterall i hadn't been thinking of attending one the whole day.infact i have not attended one in weeks now!(maybe here lies the point!)
I read a book on dream analysis which vividly states that dreams are the manifestations of our repressed feelings and emotions..and like on most issues i clearly agree on this one too...but sometimes these so called manifestations are really revealing..and one tends to end up completely embarrassed of ones own thought process..take for instance once my friend was really upset over something and when asked repeatedly she dabbled the reason..she had a nightmare! now am sure u wud like to know what it was...hmmm..she said the whole night she was surrounded my snakes and she kept running to save herself and was sure she wasn't going to s successful in escaping the situation..and felt suffocated in the dream. and all the while she was conscious that she had been dreaming but just cud'n manage to snap open her eyes. and when she finally did the same she found herself sweating profusely as if it had been real!
Well my prior knowledge hinted that dreaming about snakes was reflective of an urge for sex and when i gave this explanation she was flabbergasted and assured that this was never an idea on her mind.
I just laughed over the issue and was assured that it wasn't just possible to interpret different dreams experienced by different people on the basis of a single yardstick!...now what attending a birthday bash of someone unknown would mean is yet to be inferred by me!

Flight

Will this confusion..this indecision..ever come to an end? or is this the way i am ?so much so that i can never change the way it is? what am i a slave to? Am i enslaved to my own thoughts? Well I dont know!..and i have almost given up. there isint a point in fighting. After all who am i fighting against? It is my own self.....and i have realised that one can bicker down all odds but not against ones own set frame of mind. I am irritated , suffocated...and bound. as if i am handcuffed and cannot break apart the chains i feel i am tied with..But when i give it a deep thought..when i try to fathom the reality i feel i am good , i am fine and its all so perfect! then why such inflexions? But then i am sure all of us have a small little bird hidden in the crevaces within us and it yearns for a flight to getaway from where it is. and each time we promise ourselves that we shall let go of it. but we never do that simply because we cant ever muster the courage for the same. So its quite understandable that if me or you think that way we aren't abnormal! its just that our limitations outdo our sense of self and we cannot help it. And so we pretend to become complacent and impress upon others that we sure are smug enough even though the little birdie still troubles us. We pacify it and it sleeps only after the reassurance of another pleasant dream. After all this dream is definitely better than anything else.

Aimless

Aimless
Sometimes i feel like an aimless wanderer..searching for something. but all i can do is to search..but searching what? if i knew that i wouldnt be aimless. Well thats so confusing. I feel its quite an enigma. some people are just so sure abt what they want . Their prerogatives are straight. Their methods and moves are planned. Their ways are practical and their thoughts are focussed...But there are some like me..hunters..hunting for objectives in life , for motives to self inspiration , continuously groping..almost in the dark. Well i often experience that the destination seems so clouded that i can't see it myself..or is there any destination at all? May be life is this constant travel...but that explanation doesn't pacify me or satiate me..it rather irks my being, it irritates me. disturbs me. but then i pretend. pretend that all is fine....and i look around.All is actually fine..perfect..the way it should have been..better than wat others might perceive it to be!..and this makes me feel i am just too fastidious, complaining, cribbing ( but do i actually ever complain?)and that i just dont know how to live..and maybe in my earnest urge to reach my destination i was missing out the fun of the travel!..i get confused..dont know wats right...and my peeved mind decides to take refuge in the pages of a good book...Then comes the catharasis...which brings me peace. It makes me feel that the whole idea of rummaging around is just about useless. let life guide itself...let me be a silent spectator!

New Discovery


I have lately felt that discovering ones own self is a very cumbersome task!!..and it isin't something one has to make a deliberate attempt for...It happens. as we move forward in life we learn that we were so wrong!leave aside wrong opinions about others , we can just be so erroneous about our very own selves!
But then what do we do??? Is brooding over it..and contemplating for days ..the right solution? Can we for the rest of our lives keep feeling bad..or for that matter keep feeling haplessly sorry for ourselves???

On my very own path to self discovey i noticed that there was so much more about me that was vieled..there was so much that had to be unravelled and noone but just me could take up the task of doing the same...but then my practical sense was encountered by another flabbergasting question!!
....."Was is Necessary?"
I mean my life is going smoothly..sailing like a ship with many sails..then why do i need this turbulence?
Is it not alright just the way it is..i mean i am happy..so why change at all?..but then i was reminded of an inspirational quote which reads..
" A ship is always safe at the shore..but that is not what it is meant for."
And i decided to move on.

Thanks for reading